It hurts, but I must remember to trust God...

I hurt today, emotionally, mentally, spiritually. It hurts all the way to the core of who I am. I don't know why Satan, the snake he was made, the snake that will crawl on his belly until the end of time. Our family has been stunned, shocked, been torn to pieces by one thoughtless action, & now the whole family is involved, not mildly but very deeply.

My peace has been ripped apart, torn from my heart, as people become selfish, not listening to God's word. They hurt so many because they just don't want to try anymore. I've cried, I've questioned God, I don't understand why-but the hurt that has hit our family feels like we were hit by a tornado & lost all our possesions, to the extent that rebuilding just isn't worth it. My husband is sick, having problems with his blood pressure that I worry his health is deteriorating to the point he will never be well again.

Why I don't know-but God does & I know He will give us answers in His own time, in His own way. Pray for us in the next few days, weeks to come. Pray that God will show us why all this has happened, why our family has to hurt as we are now.

We all have our favorite songs in life. Two of my favorite are songs that I have come to know in the last two years. One of these songs we sing in our church services, the words are so meaningful-it is the first song I am putting in. Read these words, let them soak in, realizing the truth about our God.
The second song I heard with my husband at the first Southern Gospel Festival held at Silver Dollar City in Branson, MO. I had never heard of this group, but have fallen in love with their music, the way they praise God through their music, their singing. God blessed them all with beautiful voices & they in return have used their voices to praise God with songs full of beautiful words, teaching others of God's love for them. This group is Karen Peck & New River.

Ancient Words

Lynn DeShazo

Holy words long preserved

For our walk in this world.

They resound with God's own heart. O let the ancient words impart.

Words of life, words of hope,Give us strength, help us cope.

In this world, where'er we roam, Ancient words will guide us home.

Chorus:

Ancient words, ever true,Changing me and changing you.

We have come with open hearts. O let the ancient words impart.

Holy words of our faith Handed down to this age

Came to us through sacrifice.O heed the faithful words of Christ!

Holy words long preserved For our walk in this world.

They resound with God's own heart. O let the ancient words impart.

Chorus:

Ancient words, ever true, Changing me and changing you.

We have come with open hearts. O let the ancient words impart.

"Four Days Late"

Written by Aaron Wilburn
Performed by Karen Peck and New River

• 
  The news came to Jesus, Please come fast
• Lazarus is sick and without your help he will not last
• Mary and Martha watched their brother die
• They waited for Jesus, He did not come And they wondered why.
  The death watch was over, Buried four days
• Somebody said He'll soon be here, the Lord's on His way
• Martha ran to Him and then she cried
• Lord if you had been here You could have healed him
• He'd still be alive
• But You're four days late And all hope is gone
• Lord we don't understand why you've waited so long
• But His way is God's way Not yours or mine
• When He's four days late He's still on time
  
• Jesus said Martha show me the grave,
• But she said LordYou don't understand He's been there four days
• The grave stone was rolled back, Then Jesus criedLazarus come forth
• then somebody said He's alive, He's alive
• But You're four days late And all hope is gone
• Lord we don't understand why you've waited so long
• But His way is God's way Not yours or mine
• When He's four days late He's still on time
  
• You may be fighting a battle of fear
• You've cried to the Lord I need You nowBut he has not appeared.
• Friend don't be discouraged Cause He's still the same
• He'll soon be here He'll roll back the stone
• And He'll call out your name
  
• But You're four days late And all hope is gone
• Lord we don't understand why you've waited so long
• But His way is God's way Not yours or mine
• When He's four days late He's still on time
  

I love to hear my sweet husband sing. He is a blessing to me, a blessing from God that I truly cherish. He has the voice of an angel, a voice every one loves to hear. He has used his voice for God, to sing for people, to praise God giving him the glory, easing peoples heart and soul. I have been so blessed to have spent 30 years with this blessing from God for me. I have given my heart and soul to this man, thanking God every day for him. I am proud to be my husband's wife, proud to be the wife of such a godly man.

I feel good on some days, on others I don't

There are days that I feel wonderful & then there are days that I feel really bad. Life has handed me some rough knocks, but life has really given me some wonderful blessings, more blessings than the rough knocks. I must admit that I do get depressed some times, but I pray to God that He removes Satan from my life, Satan that is causing my depression, that was making to forget that God will lift me up and bless me with more blessings than I could ever imagine. I rested all day Saturday, which gave me such energy on Sunday, energy that let me enjoy worshipping God at church with other brothers and sisters. I was able to stay awake and really hear what God wanted me to hear, to hear his message that made me think of how I can change my life that would be a better testimony of God's love and blessings.
I struggle with my back pain daily, but I am learning what triggers my pain & what doesn't. I have started walking my dog in the early morning or late evenings when the air is cooler here in AR, where we can walk safely, enjoying the sounds that God created for us to hear. I get frustrated with my back, the pain, the fear of going to have another surgery-but I must put my trust in God, allowing God to get rid of my pain, fears, replacing it with hope & peace that only He can give-that only He will bless me with.
I must remember that Psalms 119 deals with our hurts, struggles, & joy that God gives or takes away. I must change my life, my attitude by doing these things:

1. Commit to READ the scriptures through BIBLE READING, FASTING called to do so, because of the situation. Right now our family is going through a situation that has torn our family apart-one that only God has control over. I decided to do a liquid fasting for a while, praying, believing God's word, worshipping God's creations daily, letting God give me His peace in my heart.
2. Hear God in the scriptures-that is not just reading the scriptures but really read them, letting the scriptures speak to me, transforming my life daily.
3. Submit to the authority of GOD, the BIBLE, SCRIPTURES, because it is authorized by God.

I asked my self and I ask you, when is the last time I (you) significantly change or adjusted myself after reading the scriptures of the Bible, letting them really speak to me as I read them. God said in the Bible, 'Be still and know I am God'. I must ask myself, as you should, when was the last time I did so. Gods' Blessing today & in the days to come.

This is the first day......

to my new reinvention of my old blog

This is the first day of the rest of my life-it is the first day of the rest of my life-it is the life God has blessed me with, through all the hurts, through all the doubts, He is always there the center of my life reminding me how I should live, how he, God clothes me when I/we need clothing, how he provides food and shelter when it is needed, not to look for things that I don't need. To be watchful to help those who need you, to believe in those who need you, those who are accused falsely and who falsely accuse you of things that hold no merit. I have a God who is swift to forgive and swift to love even those we are sometimes long to forgive those who hurt us. I am not perfect but I know that God, our perfect God, loves us with no hesitation, loves as a father does because He is our Father.
I just found a wonderful blog, called THE SIMPLE WOMAN: What I read and saw was an uplift to me, made me think of who I wanted to be and what I wanted people to think of me. I am always worrying about needing this or that, tending to forget that God will take care of my needs-not me taking care of my needs. Oh what a simple mind I have not to believe what I know I should believe.
Belief in God is ones own choice, just as choosing if you marry or not, who you marry, number of children if any you have, we all make choices that affect our daily living, our lives. I chose to belief in God, to trust him, but have not always let him take care of me like I should have. I hope to start a new, doing more relying on God, less relying on myself. I can't see what is in any ones heart or mind, only God can---that I have to remember about people, hopefully people will remember that about me--being short to judge, accuse, or speak before thinking as I should of them.
I hope you will enjoy the change in this blog but visit my knitting blog that is included in my e-mails when I correspond with people. I you are interested in viewing my other blog, just send me a note in the comments section, leaving your e-mail address and I will be happy to send it to you. Gods' Blessing this night and day tomorrow. Visit soon as I will be adding to this blog, along with cleaning it up the blog, adding blogs I find of interesting to me that I think would be good to pass on.

How blessed we are-

I have come to realize lately how blessed my family and I are. How God has blessed us, all of us, no matter where you are, are blessed by God. We had a wonderful church service at the building we attend. The people in this building, the body of the church, are so loving, such a caring church, one who loves to reach out to those who hurt, bind up the wounded, a church that wants to care for those who are sinners, like we the whole body of Christ, the church of God. We study the Bible & try our hardest to follow the instructions that Christ laid down for us, trying to pattern our church-our individual lives-to be more Christ like.

We studied Psalms, the whole chapter of Psalms 119, the longest chapter in the Bible. Psalms 119, discusses our hurts, struggles, & joy of our lives, your life. We looked at Psalms 32-which says in vs. 7-

Psalms 32:7 says:

• You are my hiding place;
• You shall preserve me from trouble;
• You shall surround me with songs of deliverance
• vs. 10-11
• Many sorrows shall be to the wicked;
• But he who trusts in the Lord, mercy shall surround him.
• Be glad in the Lord and rejoice, your righteous;
• And shout for joy, all you upright in heart!

Psalms 103 reminds us to:

• Bless the Lord, O my soul;
• And all that is within me, bless His holy name!
• Bless the Lord, O my soul,
• And forget not all His benefits;
• Who forgives all your iniquities,
• Who heals all your diseases,
• Who redeems your life from destruction,
• Who crowns you with loving kindness & tender mercies,
• Who satisfies your mouth with good things,
• So that your youth is renewed like the eagle's.

in Isaiah 61:1-3 it says:

• The Spirit of the Lord God is upon Me
• Because the Lord has anointed Me
• Tod preach good tidings to the poor;
• He has sent Me to heal the brokenhearted,
• To proclaim liberty to the captives,
• And the opening of the prison to those who are bound;
• To proclaim the acceptable year of the Lord,
• And the day of vengeance of our God,
• To comfort all who mourn,
• To console those who mourn in Zion,
• To give them beauty for ashes,
• The oil of joy for mourning;
• The garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness;
• That they may be called trees of righteousness,
• The planting of the Lord, that He may be glorified.

This last scripture speaks of Jesus coming to earth and what His work on Earth was meant for, how it would be to save us from our sins, by overcoming death for us all, by His death on the cross. Our God is a gracious God, a loving God, shown to us by his words on the cross when He said 'Father forgive them for the know not what they do'-how many of us could say this if were in this situation.

May each of you know this peace that comes form God. Know His love that only He can give. God' blessings to you all.