Monday, July 14, 2008
It hurts, but I must remember to trust God...
I hurt today, emotionally, mentally, spiritually. It hurts all the way to the core of who I am. I don't know why Satan, the snake he was made, the snake that will crawl on his belly until the end of time. Our family has been stunned, shocked, been torn to pieces by one thoughtless action, & now the whole family is involved, not mildly but very deeply.
My peace has been ripped apart, torn from my heart, as people become selfish, not listening to God's word. They hurt so many because they just don't want to try anymore. I've cried, I've questioned God, I don't understand why-but the hurt that has hit our family feels like we were hit by a tornado & lost all our possesions, to the extent that rebuilding just isn't worth it. My husband is sick, having problems with his blood pressure that I worry his health is deteriorating to the point he will never be well again.
Why I don't know-but God does & I know He will give us answers in His own time, in His own way. Pray for us in the next few days, weeks to come. Pray that God will show us why all this has happened, why our family has to hurt as we are now.